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utk mencari ketenangan seketika !!!

yeahh I'm not perfect !!!

yup...aq bukan nye perfect...
selalu buat salah...xreti jaga ati org kan...
itu lar aq...
haissshhh...fuck ar...
aq pon xtau mana salah silap aq ar sial...
tp xpe ar...aq mintak maaf ar yer...klu aq silap...

Jealous Guy - John Lennon !!!!

I was dreaming of the past.
And my heart was beating fast,
I began to lose control,
I began to lose control,

I didn't mean to hurt you,
I'm sorry that I mad you cry,
I didn't want to hurt you,
I'm just a jealous guy,

I was feeling insecure,
You night not love me any more,

I was shivering inside,
I was shivering inside,

I was trying to catch your eyes,
Thought that you were trying to hide,
I was swallowing my pain,
I was swallowing my pain. 

bole pk seniri?
oke pk ar seniri !!!
klu suma benda jadik salah aq kan???
fine !

aq dah tanya cara elok...ko xnak jawab betol2...
ko ingt aq nie ape ar??
kot yer pon ko jijik ngn kisah silam aq...xperlu ar layan aq cmni...
aq dh cuba layan ko habis baek...tp ape yg aq dapat???
dah lar...malas cakap banyak...
aq cakap banyak2 pon aq yg salah...
sendiri mau pikir ar !!!

I'll be watching YOU - Sting !!!

Every breath you take
And every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
Ill be watching you

Every single day
And every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
Ill be watching you

Oh, cant you see
You belong to me
Now my poor heart aches
With every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
Ill be watching you

Since youve gone, Ive been lost without a trace
I dream at night, I can only see your face
I look around but its you I cant replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby please

Oh, cant you see
You belong to me
Now my poor heart aches
Every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
Ill be watching you

Every move you make
Every step you take
Ill be watching you
Ill be watching you

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
(Ill be watching you)

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
(Ill be watching you)

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
(Ill be watching you)

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
(Ill be watching you)

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
(Ill be watching you)

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night

study week !!!!

diam x diam....dah study week...
jadual exam pon...dh dpt...so study week nie..
aq banyak tekankan kat kat subjek technical math ngn C# programming...
sbb nie dua subjek killer maut...haha...yg laen insyaallah boley buat...
hehe...xsabo dah nie nak abes final...hehehe..

Never gonna leave this bed - maroon 5 !!

You push me, I don't have the strength to
Resist or control you
So take me down, take me down

You hurt me but do I deserve this?
You make me so nervous
Calm me down, calm me down

Wake you up in the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed

So come here and never leave this place
Perfection of your face
Slows me down, slows me down

So fall down, I need you to trust me
Go easy, don't rush me
Help me out, why don't you help me out?

Wake you up in the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed

So you say go, it isn't worth it
And I say no, it isn't perfect
So I stay and still
I'm never gonna leave this bed

Take it, take it all, take all that I have
I'd give it all away just to get you back
And fake it, fake it, I'll take what I can get

Knocking so loud
Can you hear me yet?
Try to stay awake
But you can't forget

Wake you up in the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed

You say go, it isn't worth it
And I say no, it isn't perfect
So I stay and still
I'm never gonna leave this bed

Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have

Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have

Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have

Take it, take it all
Take all that I have

17 / 4 / 2011 !!!

tournement futsal anjuran kediaman siswa UNIKL...
blok10...jalan pantai endah telah berlangsung...
dan pasukan Soleysyo telah mendaftarkan diri dlm pertandingan ini...
dan alhamdullilah Soleysyo FC...telah dinobatkan sebagai juara keseluruhan...
setelah membelasah pasukan lawan 9-5 di Final kejohanan nie...
hahahahaha....
well good job team !!!

I know its hard for you !!!

yaa..i understand it...
seriously...its really hard for u to forget the mistakes that I've made...
even u already make a decision to give another chance for me...
but i know...u're in dilemma on that time..
so take ur time...to think about it properly...
i will accept all the answer from u...
aslkan awak x menyesal dgn keputusan tuh...
and awk selesa dgn keputusan tuh...
coz I don't want u to be suffer..its more better if i'm suffering alone...
coz its all my fault...oke??
so think about it properly sayang...

Always - Bon Jovi !!!

This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up

I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

thank god.. !!

alhamdullilah....she give another chance for me...
to take her as mine again...
thank god...
and a lot of thanks to Masturah Helmi...

u're not mine anymore !!!

hmmm...its hard for me to accept it...
sbb aq sumpah syg ko giler2...
bkn niat aq nak menipu ko...
tp ko dh x mampu nak percaya dgn aq lagi...
aq juz harap ko beri aq peluang terakhir...
klu ko nk buat cmtuh...
xpe lar...but can u give me a chance to met u for the last time...
lepas nie...awk jagalah diri awk baek2...
be a good girl yaa...
be careful for choosing friends...
i'm so sorry for what i did...
it was my fault...
i'm really2 sorry...
i hope u will not hate me...even we are not a couple anymore...
i hope that we still can be a friends..
coz i don't think  i can leave u dlm tempoh terdekat...
now i just hope for miracle...that i can get u back to me...
coz i'm still loving u...

i'm so sorry...please give another chance ??

yup...it was my fault...
i've been cheating her...
i'm so sorry....
please forgive me...
would u give me another chance utk perbaiki keadaan???
i really need you........

I will cut my hair...ohh yeaahh !!!

hahhaha...bukan sbb mmg nak potong rambut ke ape...
tp sbb isau xdapat masuk dewan exam..utk final  nie nnt..
hahahha...tgu jer lar nnt aq update gambar rambut baru setelah dikerat nnt yer...hahahha
(tgh sedih nie)...

you light me up !!

yaa...u are just light a sun...
that make my day seems so bright...
u are just my new drug...
seriously...i'm addicted to urself...
damn man...
i'm really so in love with u...

shisha !!

yup2...pegi shisha dgn bdk2 aq nie...dekat andalus...
isap shisha sekor2 mcm xpenah jumpa shisha...hahaha
memang sorg2 naga...
aq plak isap...mcm lepas nie xbley isap ag...
sbb ape???saja nak bg diri petak...hahahaha
bley release tension...hahahahha
tp shisha al-andalus...mmg terbaek...hahahahaha

yaa....I'm stalker ur FB dear !!!

bukak FB beliau...peh...naek2 jer tgk...

ramai pulak chatting dgn beliau...

"hotstuff" rupe nyer beliau...

untung lar kan....

ramai lelaki nak kat ko....hahaha...

and one more things...sedang baek nyer jdik stalker...

tiba2...eh2...wujud ag mamat pukimak nie....kat wall beliau...

aq hengat dh pegi jahanam dh mamat tuh....

haiiisshhh xtau...sapa tegur sapa....sapa mula cari sapa...

tp bkn nak ckp ape...lu ada mata lu pndang...lu ad telinga lu dengar..lu ada otak lu pikir lar sendiri....

(try to think about what my feelings when I saw that???xsama ke mcm punca ko naek2 ngn aq??hahaha...)

???

I'm just started miss her so badly...after about one weeks...
both of us don't see each other...hahahaha...
tp xkesah lar...tahan ar sket...bukan hape...maleh nak kacau...
beliau tgh serabut dgn assignment pejadah suma kan...
so just let her finish her assignment first...
t ado rezeki jumpo lar jugok...hahaha

kembali sakit !!!

hahaha...nie yg xbesh nak crite...hahaha
kembali sakit...tatkala otak tgh serabut dgn assignment...dgn nak hadap final ag...adooiii....
bnyk nya benda nak kena buat....so "sakit" lama aq tuh pon kembali ar...
actually dh dekat 2minggu aq nye "sakit" nie datang...
tgn dh mcm ada power vibrator...menggigil jer...
bdan resah jer xsenang duduk...
tp dah bertekad kan nak clean from all that...
so aq try bertahan...lawan ar "sakit" nie...walaupon perit...hahahaha...sabo jer lar !!!haha

at last !!!

hahahaha....dapat jugak aq password FB beliau...
mampos lar ko...aq stalker ko...hahahahahaha(gelak jahat sgt)
tp stakat nie alhamdullilah aq stalker fb beliau...maseh clean...
(haa jgn terkantoi t ape2 suda)....nahas ko nnt...hahahaha....
=D

berbaloikah ???

persoalan yg ada dlm otak aq sekarang...berbaloi ke ape yg aq buat nie???
haissshhhh tepuk dada tanya selera lar kan????hahaha....
kadang2 terasa mcam sia2 jer...apa aq cuba buat dan tunjuk nie...mcm x di ambil peduli jer...hahaha...
tp kdg2 terasa mcm berbaloi gak...so aq pon xtau mana 1...pening2 !!

bersabar dgn perangai "manusia" !!!

sebenar nyer dh penat bersabar ngn perangai segelintir "manusia" nie....
ntah...naek muak plak aq dgn perangai bodo...ag bangang mereka2 nie....hahaha
nak ditegur dikatanya nie diri aq...so aq xda hak masuk campur...
nak di pukul xsampai hati...kwn2..xpon org tuh popuan...xrela aq digelar dayus pulak...
tp tuh lar...kepada "manusia" yg berkenaan...bwk2 lar berubah...
xperlu lar...nak control life org laen...xperlu nak org suma ikut kehendak korg...hahaha...
come on ar...had sabar seseorg ada batas nye...so jgn sampai kesabaran tuh habes limit nya....
maaaaooootttt nanti...hahahaha...

perlu ke nak palat org semacam ???

nie nak citer pasal ntah mamat bodo ag bangang mana ntah....

tetiba nak palat pelik aq semacam....mcm aq ada kacau idop dia ke ape...

aq pon xtau apesal ngn mamat tuh....

setelah disiasat..rupa2nya dia angin coz aq couple ngn bdk popuan yg dia minat...

ahhhh mcm bangang jer aq rasa mamat nie....

lepas tuh palat aq mcm xpuas hati....hahahaha...wei fuck-off lar...ko punye

palat pelik tuh sket pon xbikin aq goyang lar kimak !!!

pelik2 jer manusia zaman sekarang...bkn ape...klu ada xpuas hati ke..ape ke...

bak datang lar sial....jumpa...ckp macmana nak setel...xpayah nak palat2 pelik org...motherfucker lar wei....

klu ko rasa ko punye mata tuh cukup bikin aq goyang silap ar....aq bukan adik2 ko...nak goyang tgk ko....sket pon aq xgoncang dgn lar bangsat !!

such a bollocks !!!!

jgn mudah percaya dgn kebaikan org...!!

malas nak taip panjang-panjang...xberapa nak larat...
sbb benda nie cakap panjang2 pon xde guna...
tp senang cerita...even mcmana baek sekalipon org tuh kat kita...jgn mudah sgt pecaya...
kaji betol2...betol ke dia nie baek ngn kita...or mybe they got any agenda for being so kind to us...
so hati2 ar...xsuma ar org luaran nampak baek dlm tuh baek...
so kita dh besar panjang...so pandai2 ar..pikir...
nak ckp bnyk2 masing2 umbun2 kepala dh besar....so think before put ur trust to anybody....
don't so silly....hahahaha
(based on true story)

Colours - Oh Chentaku !!

Today,

I'm getting closer to you,

To tell you that I missed you, so much,

The stars are here and the waves were coercive,

These knuckles break before they bleed that I'm sure,

I tried not to drown in the water,

Forgive me for what I've done in the past,

This is the day,

This is our time to we make it right, from right back where we left it,

This is afterlife, we longing for,

The colours of our chemistry

Curses were not from my heart,

It shattered my eyes; I spoke of which I didn't realize,

I overreacted,

Shed no tears anymore

Knives' marks will never be replaced,

No, not in this lifetime,

Breaking promises into pieces,

But I'm here to sweat myself pulling things back together,

Heavens are thin, the speed of the heartbeats

I would have kill myself if you let me to do it

There's nowhere else to go,

Other than you

I'm Sorry !!!

just ti say sorry to u...for what I did...
I'm realize that it was my fault...hope u will forgive me...
I'll make sure that its not gonna be happen again...

Perubahan diri !!!

gambar nie di ambil pada awal tahun 2010..
sementara tgu result...
badan agak naek2..sbb
haty tgh senang duit banyak time nie...hahaha

nie gambar yg diambil 2 bulan sebelum ke UNIKL...
badan turun mendadak...
sebab tgh "sakit" time nie...hahahaha

gambar sebulan selepas new year...
 baru lepas excident...badan dah mula turun sket2...

time mula2 di UNIKL...
hahahaha...bapak kurus giler...
time nie tgh sengkek teruk...
tgh "sakit" ag lak tuh....mau nyer xkurus...hahahahaha

now this is the new me...
dh naek balek badan tuh...
rambut pon dh kembang kaw2...hasil 7bulan xpotong...
gemok kan sekarang???hahaha...
tgh plan nak kurus balek nie...hehehe...

Please Kill Me written by Legs Mcneil and Gillian McCain !!

nie lah buku terbaek penah aq baca...

sumpah xtipu...

ntah melalui buku nie...

aq rasa mcm dpt belajar sumtink about life...

hahaha...

guys u all should read this book...

its really awesome man...

mengajar kita utk survive dlm hidop...

ajar kita what is punk actually...

teach us about what is true music...

and a lot more thing we can learn from this fuckin' great book !

aq xmampu nak describe lebey2...

tp satu benda jer aq bley cakap...

buku nie..

seriously awesome !!!

home sick !!!

arrrggghhhh...dah nak dekat final nie lar....
penyakit nie dtg...hahahaha....
tp sumpah seyh...aq rindu giler nak balek penang....
rindu tilam aq..rindu bantal aq...rindu gitar kapok aq tuh...
rindu dgn "tenggiling putih" aq tuh...rindu saga hitam bapak aq...
rindu mama aq,,,rindu bapak aq...rindu kan member2 penang aq...
haiiisshhhh....so nak xnak 8hb nie...aq mesti balek penang...hahahaha....
g1 aq nak balek penang sgt...sbb nak release tension ngn suasana UNIKL semester nie..tuh jer..sekian !

editing !!!

hahaha....saja2 cuba2 utk mengedit2 gambar kan...hahaha...
xreti padahal...tgk sendiri lar hasil nyer.....